ESCAPE

An escape from everyday life is all we are looking for. Maybe a chance to block our the reality we live in and find somewhere else to go. A distant country in Africa like my friend bryan is headed to would be a great place to escape to. Traveling the world is one option. When I put in my headphones and listen to music that alone is an escape. I can zone out, leave this place to wherever I want to go. Maybe I'll visit depression. Hopefully I'll visit happiness. More and more I am enjoying escaping from this place to journey to wherever I please. Anotherl adventure would be to induce some sort of altered reality. This is a true escape but a risky one. Once gone you have a while til you come back depending on what sort of intoxication you prefer. An addiction can settle in fast and hard. The final adventure away from here would be death itself. This is never the goal as of now. Ill wait til I'm 80 or so to do some hardcore stuff. Get drunk and run a nice car off a cliff; wouldn't that just be a blast. Eh, maybe? There are other ways of dying when you are of age that aren't so cliche. When the time comes maybe 80 won't feel so old.

Too bad the reality on earth isn't awesome so an escape wouldn't be necessary. But then again maybe this reality is exactly where I'm suppose to be and this is my escape from another more evil and darker place full of suffering to the enth degree.

RED

Red

The color of choice anytime

Apples of best taste red can only be this

Juicy and wet with each bite

A classic sports car faster than most

Lights flash red behind now speaking to an officer

Bulls charging no matter how angry

They fight against the flowing red beauty

Blended into flickering flames

Fire rises and falls in red prayer

The common Devil sitting in his thrown

Hell’s primary vision among the red evil below

A cherry pie cooling by the window

Delicious in texture on your red tongue

Versatile this color is

For love and faith we give it to others

Cards and candy mixed red for one day

Don’t ignore this on the streets

Refusing to obey red a fatal accident awaits

Oozing blood from a cut of open skin

Too deep and a doctor must stitch red

After mary is put into air

Bloodshot red eyes glance in suspicion

But above all

The strongest passion of any color

Holding its head high to rule over many

Greatest in strength is

Red

Some Sort of Insanity Settles In

I guess it has been the same old stuff:

Struggling in school

Wishing riches came on a whim

Smoking weed to remind myself I don't give a shit

Staring at a life faced with more hardships than necessary (brought on by my dumb ass self)

Feeling guilt in letting my Dad down

Thinking getting paid as a pro gamer would be cool and possibly do-able

Knowing God is disappointed but still askin for help every night

Getting pissed at seeing happy couples in public just cus relationships in my life suck

Wanting the gym to be the only place I live in

Done with taking a medicine that supposedly makes me happy

More and more feeling the urge to explore the world and never stop

All this and I still struggle with the meaning of it all

Something's Gone Terribly Wrong

Too succeed is a term known to everyone.

Too fail

Now thats a whole different idea

I wish I could see into the future

I'd know then if I fail

Or succeed

INNEVITABLE

The chest rises and falls

A quake disturbing the peace

Light soaks into the cold skin

Cigarette smoke fades strong teeth

Smiles trade glances with pride

Our model too look up to

All eyes wonder and are lost in thought

Uncertain if there is pure truth

Thin blankets shade the weak soul

We all hide behind laughter

One last moment to live together

That kiss leaves your lips for the last time

Clenched hands loosen their grip

They die with you at their side still loving

CREATIVE WRITING

Today i was introduced to my creative writing class. The professor is smokin hot and her name is Amy. I think im going to enjoy this class and will probably pay close attention to detail mainly because i already enjoy the professor. It will be a tough class riddled with different ways of ultimately receiving a grade. That of course, is not the reason im attending, I think I would much rather gain the knowledge and skills that the class holds within. Only then will i receive an awesome grade and an awesome experience. Aight but fer real now, I am having a tough time writing fiction and I've come to realize after today that i enjoy writing poems much more than fiction, as odd as that sounds. Yeah it may make me look like a flaming homo but whatever, all who know me know that i love pussy. With that said i think writing poems is what i will enjoy most in this class. Tomorrow's adventures include three more new classes which also means three chances to meet new people, and three chances to decide whether i will hate my life this semester, or it will be much more enjoyable than last.

INDEPENDENCE

The feeling of utter joy and happiness by merely being by yourself and completely by yourself is a rare thing, humans are naturally social and dependent people right? So turns out right about now im feelin absolutely amazing being alone. No one is here and im kickin it n my apartment alone. It's a great feeling of independence and peace. There is no girl in my life and im basically on my own other than my family supporting me and backing me up in life overall. I have never felt such a feeling of joy from independence. There has been this feeling of self security and self knowing that i have been poking at for awhile now. Never been real confident in myself, whether it be appearance, socially, whatever you think of when confidence comes to mind. Self discovery is rare for me and this is really coming into view lately. Being by myself has truly made me discover how to by self reliant for happiness. Im not saying im a pro at it and im not saying im an absolute rainbow bursting with happiness every second of the day, but i am saying that i am very happy with life right now and can't see the need for blue days. Smiling and feeling good inside is what its all about. I don't know what im doing with this life of mine or where it is headed, but that doesn't get down on how i can feel. I don't know jack squat about the world and thats alright, i have a whole wonderful lifetime to figure it out. Look up at the sky and see how broad the sky truly is. It is massive! That is how i feel about life, it is massive with so much variance and possibility. Finding myself is a great experience and hope all who do this for themselves are making a great life for themselves. It is awesome to be in this position and have this feeling of utter freedom. Im a lucky kid and am greatful