Sunday, January 10, 2010

INDEPENDENCE

The feeling of utter joy and happiness by merely being by yourself and completely by yourself is a rare thing, humans are naturally social and dependent people right? So turns out right about now im feelin absolutely amazing being alone. No one is here and im kickin it n my apartment alone. It's a great feeling of independence and peace. There is no girl in my life and im basically on my own other than my family supporting me and backing me up in life overall. I have never felt such a feeling of joy from independence. There has been this feeling of self security and self knowing that i have been poking at for awhile now. Never been real confident in myself, whether it be appearance, socially, whatever you think of when confidence comes to mind. Self discovery is rare for me and this is really coming into view lately. Being by myself has truly made me discover how to by self reliant for happiness. Im not saying im a pro at it and im not saying im an absolute rainbow bursting with happiness every second of the day, but i am saying that i am very happy with life right now and can't see the need for blue days. Smiling and feeling good inside is what its all about. I don't know what im doing with this life of mine or where it is headed, but that doesn't get down on how i can feel. I don't know jack squat about the world and thats alright, i have a whole wonderful lifetime to figure it out. Look up at the sky and see how broad the sky truly is. It is massive! That is how i feel about life, it is massive with so much variance and possibility. Finding myself is a great experience and hope all who do this for themselves are making a great life for themselves. It is awesome to be in this position and have this feeling of utter freedom. Im a lucky kid and am greatful

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